THE LONELINESS IN THE EYES OF JOY

The misty eyes looked familiar ... for the eyes say what the lips cannot utter.  I have had  a lot of these heart to heart talk in my many years  as a bookseller.  I love to talk, but I also love to listen. People who you knew nothing about and who knows nothing about you are at times the best people to talk with, be it matters of the heart or family matters. You can be totally honest with them and them with you ... and then later forget about everything that had been that had been said.

Recalling bad memories they would share with their loved ones can easily be related with other people who have no vested interest in you - the reason why in the western countries, they pay professional therapist and "shrinks" just to get the heat out of their burners. We Pinoys are not so accustomed to that so we seek advice, pour our heart out to almost anyone who are willing to listen to our miseries but later find ourselves no better than where we started from. Most are merely forum-shopping, trying to embolden themselves by seeking favorable counsels from people they know who most of the time think that its rather demeaning to disagree.

Loneliness in the eyes of joy, pretending everything is okay and they are fit enough to handle their problems. Pretending that they want to hear some words of advice but in reality they have all their mind made up. They won't stop until they have  a horde of people backing them up to make their stand. They would try to rationalize, and refer to some readings they have made,  but one thing I have learned in learning - there is no sure remedy for each case, each problem have to be dealt with differently.  You get 20 people to read one book and you'll come up with 20 different interpretation - that's how things are and that's how things will ever be.

Books may have some answers but they do not have all the answers.  The human mind, the human heart, and the human soul, poetically are three different CPU's that operates inside every human being.  Unlike computers, one algorithm to a thousand PC's will produce the same result, but for humans, one solution will produce different results for different  people.  Even husbands and wives who are supposed to be "one" speak with different voices except when the "man" of the house will come to realize that even him as the king of the castle is no match for an "Ace of heart" that every loved woman had.

I will surely miss days like this ... when I can say what I want to say, relate to people what I have discovered, and maybe in a way or two tip in a hint of which door they could open to aid them in their journey.  Most of them build walls to keep away people they despise but fail to realize that what they have really built was their prison.  Some seek serenity through religion but find themselves shackled to their beliefs.  And some use knowledge learned to heightened their "ego", paint themselves into a corner and cannot find a way to move out of the miseries they got themselves into.

Deserves got nothing to do with it  ... we reap what we sow,
and most of the time, we have it coming ..we just don't know when.